our little fish

We spent the 4th of July weekend with my in-laws. Trevor's parents are here for the month of July and they usually spend a good part of their time in Nashville. So, off to Nashville we went! We spent most of the weekend just hanging out and swimming. Avery decided to turn into a fish this weekend and finally learned how to swim on her own! She has a lot of practicing to do ad was still a little nervous. However, she did get the hang of it and was swimming all over the place. I know all kids are different, but if you're struggling with getting your child to swim, definitely try a swim mask. That did the trick for us! Once I convinced her to try it on and "look" underwater, she was hooked. She was so excited to see what was going on under water. She didn't stop looking and wanted everyone to go under water to wave to her. She loved it! Pretty soon, she ventured off the ladder and swam with the mask on. She was holding her breath longer and longer each time. She did take a few big gulps off pool water, but she was a trooper. At first we left her swim wings on for safety, but the second day she was on her own! We were so proud. It was so fun to see how excited she was. She called it "diving" and told me today that she wants to go swimming again soon because she misses diving. :) I hope you enjoy the pictures!!!!!!!

practicing with Daddy--no swim wings :)

waving to Daddy

making necklaces with grandma & Erin

on her own, no more swim wings!!

Just like that, she is gone...

Not a good day today...they came and took sweet little A back to her home. I guess it is ok to talk about it because her mom has been cleared of any allegations. Apparently they were in a car accident. (explains the bruises) The mom was a little out of it and couldn't answer the questions very well so they suspected drug abuse and they charged her with neglect and drug exposure. That is what our case worker told us yesterday. (we have our own case worker and A had her own as well)

This morning A and I took Avery to summer camp. After we dropped her off, we came home and played for awhile. She got very sleepy so I laid her down for her morning nap. If I had known she was leaving, I would have kept her up and snuggled her a little longer. She was the sweetest, snuggliest baby. We loved having her. After she fell asleep, I took a snooze on the couch. The 98 degree temperature outside seems to zap the energy out of you! Trevor called while I was sleeping but I kept sleeping. Then he texted me to call him, but I continued to rest because I figured he just wanted to chat. I should have known. He called again and I decided to answer. A little annoyed, I admit, because I was half asleep. He said "They're coming to get A" and I sat straight up on the couch. WHAT? After hearing of the allegations just yesterday, how in the world could everything have changed? There is no way. I started bawling right away. I immediately woke her up from her nap. She was probably so confused. I could not stop crying and she was just looking at me. I changed her and gave her lunch since she hadn't eaten since breakfast. Trevor called and said he was coming home to say goodbye to her which made me cry even more. When he walked in, I was about to do the ugly cry. The thought of her going back home, I couldn't stomach it. How in the world can she go back to that? How is that right? Too soon, the doorbell rang and her case worker walked in. I was so embarrassed. I looked awful, I know. He said "I guess y'all got attached to her, huh?" I couldn't even talk at first so Trevor was able to ask what happened. That is when he explained about the mother's car accident. I am still a little confused about the allegations and the fact that she was just confused at the accident or even at the hospital...but I guess I just have to trust the judge's decision. It made Trevor and I feel a little better knowing she was going back home to a mom who has been very distraught about losing her little girl. I am glad the system protected her and we were able to get to know her and love her. Even if just for a long, extended weekend.

Yesterday I had a rough day. I was exhausted, HOT and just had kind of a rough day. I had to go get more skin cancer scraped off my face so it was hard getting out the door and there on time. Luckily, my incredible husband showed up at my appointment to help entertain the girls for me. I had told him I didn't need his help, but apparently he knew better and came to help me anyway. It was chaotic and I was flustered because A cried for me the first part of the appointment and I couldn't hold her. After that appointment, I started doubting our decision to take her. If that one appointment was so crazy, how was I going to balance this with all of my appointments? I have three doctors I have to follow up with right now so doctor appointments are almost every other week. Plus, starting at my next appointment, I start going every 2 weeks instead of every 4 weeks. I was afraid of how I was going to do it. I wasn't prepared and didn't have the energy to do it on my own. I really do not like to be a complainer, and I especially do not want to be a pregnant complainer. It is a blessing to be in the situation I am in and I know there are so many women who would trade places with me in an instant. I try so hard not to complain. However, I cannot seem to get any energy. I eat constantly to keep my blood sugar up so it doesn't crash leaving me feeling really crummy. So, that on top of the record breaking heat....I just had a crummy day. I was hoping we made the right decision and Trevor and I talked about it last night. I was worried. If we had court dates, resource parent meetings, doctor appointments, how was it all going to work out? Then, last night we had an awesome night. We had so much fun with A, we had her giggling a little belly laugh as we wrestled in her room. Ok, Trevor & Avery wrestled while I tickled A. We had so much fun and I realized that what we were doing was so much more important than my comfort level. When I read Avery her daily devotion, it talked about how we are to put others first. "Do not think of yourself, think of others first". I knew I needed to put A's needs first. The most important thing was this little girl's safety and the fact that we were able to provide a loving home for her. She was really adjusting here. She was very attached and seemed to really have fun. Today was really fun and I enjoyed hanging out just the two of us.

Then, just like that, she is gone. I am feeling very sad and can't even go back in her little room because we still have her little blankets, pillow, etc. that we had put in her crib. Trevor made a good point that it is better that she left now. It would have made it that much harder to say goodbye to her. But, as he was trying to snap a few last minute pictures of her, I was still bawling. That sucked. It was harder than I thought and makes me wonder if we're cut out for this. If it is that hard each time, we are going to be miserable. I guess the lesson in it, is that it doesn't matter how hard it is for us or how sad we are when they leave. We are doing this for children who need a safe and loving home. It is important that we protect them.

I can breathe easier knowing the bruises on A were from the car accident. The electrode marks on her were from the hospital checking her out after the accident, not from an abuse situation. I am glad we had a mild case. I guess it allowed us to get our feet wet and get a taste of how this works. God knew what we could handle at this point and apparently he knew we would only be able to handle a small dose at this point.

I will miss sweet A. I already do. So bad that I am still crying while typing this. I don't know why I cannot stop being sad. She is safe and is going back to her mommy. I just feel sad because we fell in love with her. Avery fell in love with her. Now I have to go pick Avery up from school and explain why she left. Avery is going to be devastated. She was so in love with her. Good thing Grandma and Grandpa come home for a visit next week. At least she has something to take her mind off of it. I love that we got to experience this with Avery. As hard as it will be for her to understand, it is good for her to see how we can put others first. Love others before we love ourselves. A needed a place to stay and we were able to provide that. No better way to teach God's word to her than to act it out.

Now, if we can just get Once Upon a Child to take back all of the clothes we bought for her..... :) Thanks for all of your prayers. Please keep praying for her that the situation really is ok and everything with her mom is as they say it is.

Another baby???!!!

Well, we aren't sure if we're crazy or not...but we followed God's calling this evening and took placement of a 14 month old baby girl. We got the call yesterday at 7am. Trevor got the call on his cell phone but was afraid Avery and I were still sleeping so he didn't call me. He called while I was on my way to take Avery to her summer camp and without hesitation, I said "We'll take her". We have had quite a few calls lately and we have had to turn them all down. They were for sibling groups and we just don't have enough car seats, rooms, cribs, etc. with the pickle on the way. We said if the right situation came our way, we would pray about it and do what we thought God wanted us to do. Yesterday, the little girl sounded like a situation we could handle. So, I told Trevor yes and he called back our case worker. Too late, she had been placed. I was actually really disappointed. The more I thought about it, the more excited I was to bring her here to our home. I felt it was the right thing and was at peace with it. Then when they said she had been placed, I had to know that was God's will. It wasn't meant to be. So, today at 4pm, Trevor got a call. The original home she was placed in was not fully approved so they were taking her out and wanted to know if we could take her. We said yes, and then panic set in!!! We just had a garage sale last weekend and sold all of Avery's old stuff. Since we're having a boy, we didn't need any of her old things. I had to call a friend of mine who has a 14 month old boy because I couldn't even remember what they eat at this age. Did we need bottles or sippy cups? I asked Trevor what the chances were of him coming home SOON and he said he would be here earlier than usual. That was only 10 minutes earlier than usual, but hey, he told the truth :) We finally got our new kitchen table in today so I put the chairs together this afternoon and Trevor put the rest of it together when he got home. As soon as he was finished (Literally, we pushed the chairs up to the table) and his phone rang. The case worker was on his way with baby "A" and he was about 20 minutes away. Trevor said she was crying in the background. Literally 10 minutes later he was here and we met this sweet little girl. She was so pitiful looking, I just took her immediately. I honestly think the case worker scared her. She warmed up to Avery immediately and they played while we got the run down. Actually, there wasn't much of a run down because he knew NOTHING. He didn't even know her name. He had to call another case worker for her name.

When he left, we put "A" in the high chair and gave her a snack because we had no idea if she had eaten. Avery was falling all over her trying to feed her. It really was sweet. Trevor made a list and headed to Once Upon a Child (our favorite consignment store in the world) and to the grocery store. She came with three diapers, a bottle and a spoon. Literally, that is all we had. After Trevor left, Avery and I gave "A" a bath and she LOVED it. She splashed, laughed and really had fun. She seemed a little attached to me as every time I stood up or moved, she would reach for me and start to cry. We dried her off, lotioned her down and let her crawl around in her diaper since we have no PJ's for her. We believe she is half Hispanic and she has this BEAUTIFUL, dark, curly, thick hair. Quite a change from Avery who was a bald, blond baby :) We played for awhile then I put in an old reliable.... baby Einstein. I gave her a bottle and we all three snuggled on the couch to watch the movie. Trevor called from the store while we were sitting there. I got up to get the phone and "A" cried after me. Then, I got up again to get Avery something to drink and she cried again. This time I heard Avery soothing her and when I came around the corner, she was snuggled up next to Avery and was smiling. It was so sweet. After our movie, I took her in the nursery and rocked her to sleep. It took all but five minutes for her to crash. Then I put Avery to bed and both girls are sleeping very well.

I don't really know what to think of this...I am just trying to learn how little A works for now. We have a lot to learn. I don't know how long she will be with us. A week, a month, a year, indefinitely? Who knows. Avery asked me earlier today "How long will she be with us?" My answer "I don't know how long". Her answer: "God knows". She nailed it on the head. Only God knows the plan for this sweet baby girl but for now, she is our sweet baby girl and I will take the best care of her that I can. After we put A to bed, Avery told me "I think she likes her new big sister. I think I want a baby sister now instead of the pickle". Umm, we can't change that one, honey!!!

Anyway, just wanted to update you all on our situation. If anyone has any info on what we can expect with the state, please let me know. This is our first placement. We completely forgot that we got paid to do this. The case worker mentioned it and we don't even know how to do that. Monday we will find out everything we need to do for that. We just don't know what to expect as far as now what happens. I know he will tell us everything once he reads the report...we just feel lost without having any clue what is going on.

For now, I am going to sit down for the first time since this morning....and eat my Taco Bell that Trevor is bringing home after his errands. Pretty healthy, huh? I don't care tonight, I am exhausted but for a very good reason. :)

Even though I can't share any of the details with anyone about her situation, I will keep you all posted as much as I am allowed.

Please pray for this sweet little girl. This is her first time in the system and i am sure she doesn't understand what is going on.

We appreciate the prayers!!! Have a great weekend, everyone!!! If there happens to be any dads reading this, Happy Father's Day!!!

so very thankful...

Today was a pretty miserable day. That will be my only complaint this entire post because I am counting my blessings. I had a doctor's appointment with my third doctor for this pregnancy. This one was with a hematologist, who specializes in blood diseases/disorders. Her office is located at the West Clinic in Memphis which is a cancer treatment clinic. My wonderful husband took Avery with him to visit a customer at the mall and then took her to lunch. I got to go to my appointment alone which is kind of rare. As soon as I walked in and got checked in, I started looking around the waiting room. I pulled out my magazine and then put it away. I noticed so many sick people that I immediately got a huge lump in my throat. I sat in the waiting room and tried to count how many people were in there. I estimated about 40 people. I felt so grateful that I was sitting there because I have a bleeding disorder. I am sure most of those patients would have traded places with me in a heartbeat. I watched patient after patient check in and walk out and they all looked the same. Pale, losing their hair, many tubes attached to them, some were hooked up to oxygen tanks. I sat there and just decided to pray for each person there. I figured that was why God allowed me to be at this appointment alone. Granted, I could have prayed with Avery there and it would have been a cool opportunity to pray with her and allow her to be a part of that...but it was easier to focus without her being there. I prayed for every single person in there individually. Then I would pray for those walking out of the treatment room and those walking in the door. They finally called me back and had me register at the patient information station. From that point, she led me into the "second waiting room" which was even larger than the first. There were so many people in there, I realized I had a lot of praying to do :) I even was afraid I didn't have enough time and started praying for groups instead of individuals. I can't describe the atmosphere in this place but it was something that sticks with you. There is a non-profit organization called Wings that is based here in Memphis. They have volunteers who work at the clinic all day long. Their job is to walk around to all of the patients and offer them coffee, tea, lemonade or snacks. There was even a lady pushing around a candy cart. The sweetest man offered me something to drink about 4 times. I declined since I brought my own, but even if I didn't have my own, I wouldn't have taken it. I don't think it was for patients like myself. I wasn't there for cancer, chemotherapy, radiation or anything related to that. I had a fairly easy appointment. I overheard the man telling another patient that his wife had suffered from pancreatic cancer for 4 years and lost her battle two years ago. He felt the Clinic had done so much for her, that he wanted to give back. He now spends his days bringing drinks and snacks to people while chatting with them and trying to keep their spirits up. This place was amazing and I learned a lot just by sitting there. I literally spent about 20 minutes in the room with the nurse and then doctor. The other hour and 40 minutes were spent in the waiting room. It humbled me and made me realize that having to wait for a dr. for 2 hours isn't so bad. Having our electricity out for a day because of tornadoes on Friday...isn't so bad. Being hot and miserable already this summer, that isn't so bad either. I got to get up and walk out of there completely healthy. I have that option of leaving when I was ready. Many of those people don't. They have to go there week after week. They are sick and they feel really bad. I felt so bad for them and I had to think of other things while I sat there because I was trying so hard not to cry. Especially when the sweet man shared his story of his wife. I listened to it and thought "I am going to have to get up and walk somewhere because I don't know if I can keep from crying". I have always had a soft spot for older men. I do not know why. It is kind of a joke with me and Trevor and always was when I was growing up. If I see an older man eating by himself at a restaurant, I feel so bad for them. I always want to just invite them to sit with us so they're not alone. Trevor will say "He probably wants to be alone, maybe he is traveling for work or visiting family. You don't know that he is lonely." but I just assume and it makes me feel so bad for them. So, this place, as you can imagine, was enough to send me over the edge.

There is the flip side of that story as well. There are miracles and answered prayers happening there everyday. There are people going in for a CAT scan to find out that their cancer is gone. I know there are happy stories as well. I just couldn't help but hurt for the sick. Some of them looked so lonely as they shuffled back to the chemo/radiation room and I was very glad I didn't have to walk past that room. There wasn't enough time to pray for all of those people but I did a group prayer as I left. I know God will know who I am talking about.

Just a very humbling day. As I was waiting on the doctor to come in, Trevor texted me to tell me that they were done with lunch and were on their way. He was going to meet me and hand off Avery while he went back to work. We figured 2 hours would be enough time. I wasn't done yet... He texted back to me "What is it with the doctors here!? We never wait less than 2 hours, it is ridiculous." I agree to an extent, it is hard to have Trevor take time off work to help me with Avery since my appointments last so long. We don't have family here who can watch her. However, we have great friends who watch her when they can and when schedules permit. Today was a busy day for some and others had sick kids, so it just didn't work out. Anyway, back to the comment. I agree, it isn't always convenient. However, after sitting in both waiting rooms for 2 hours and watching the patients go in and out of the treatment rooms, I think I had it pretty easy. I am not complaining. It isn't fun to sit in the waiting room, but I know it was even less fun when you're waiting in the waiting room for your chemo or radiation treatment. I felt so lucky and even guilty. Everyone just kind of looks around at each other and you know they're wondering what each other's story is.

So, not a real uplifting post today but it put things in perspective for me today and it was something I needed. I need to quit complaining about the small things and realize that I have it pretty easy. Made me think about my attitude and helped me put things into perspective.

I hope you all have a safe and healthy week. Hope you are staying cool wherever you are!!!

An update on the pickle...

I haven't really posted on him for a little while. Mostly because I don't want the blog to be all about pregnancy. I know that can get a little old for others to read :) But, I thought I'd give a quick update since we had an appointment today with the maternal-fetal medicine specialist. I am 24 weeks and he is measuring almost one week ahead which puts him in the 55th percentile. He weighs one pound and 9oz, so all is well!! We got to have a pretty in-depth ultrasound which is always very cool. I could watch it all day. Trevor and Avery got to see this one so it was fun for them as well. They actually did a portion of it in 3D and 4D which is amazing. He was curled up in a ball for most of it. She tried everything to get him to stretch out but he wasn't having it. I told her this is my 6th ultrasound and every single one of them has been this way. Apparently, he is stubborn. That or a cuddle bug, I'll pretend that is the case :) Avery kept saying "I see the pickle!!!" At first the tech said "You see what?" I think she thought maybe Avery was referring to something else...but I told her that is his nickname from the very first ultrasound we saw. So, we got to see a very snuggly pickle today. He had his hands up around his face most of the time which was really sweet. He had his mouth open quite a few times and stretched his little legs from time to time. He even gave us a peak at his "boy parts" to confirm once again, that he is definitely a boy!! The cool thing is that we go back again in 4 weeks and get to have another one. I guess there are perks to being high risk :) Time is going very fast and I am starting to get very nervous but I know I have to just put it in God's hands and trust that the delivery will go well.

Last night I found a website that cracked me up. You can design any onesie that you want. I think we're going to buy this one for the pickle and let Avery discover it when she comes to see us at the hospital.

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Isn't that hilarious? Trevor and I thought it was pretty funny. You can pick the font, color of the onesie, etc. I believe you can design any type of shirt, onesie, etc. but these were only $9.99. I just thought it would be so funny to put this on him when she sees him. At least she would get a kick out of it :) Check out the website, it is fun to play around on. http://www.makeaonesie.com looks like it would make a cute gift idea as well. I think it might be my favorite new site!! I might even get another one that says "Little Brother" that he can wear right away. He has one for when he is a little bigger thanks to my sweet friend Eileen, but it might be cute to have one in the hospital too.

Anyway, enough rambling about that...I just wanted to share because it made me laugh. I think we're going to have a hard time calling him by his name when he does get here because he is just "the pickle".

I promise not to have too many more pickle posts...just wanted to do a quick update :) I hope everyone is well and having a great week!!!

Guess where we've been!?!

cousins at the pool

We just got back from Orlando, again!! We took our second vacation there in 4 months. It was very last minute, we planned it in two weeks. However, we got a great deal thanks to my brother-in-law who works for Wyndham. He got us a one bedroom condo at Bonnet Creek Resort so we got a fantastic deal. We decided to spend a week relaxing, unlike our last trip to Orlando. This time I was 23 weeks pregnant instead of 6 1/2 weeks so I felt much better!!

We arrived Saturday evening in record time. We were there in time to let Avery go swimming in the lazy river, pool and even the hot tub for a couple of minutes. Trevor went to the grocery store while Avery and I went to bed :) A good deal for me, I have to admit.

Sunday we got to go to worship gathering which is usually a huge fill of our love tank. We got to see everyone and Avery loves her "Florida church". We went to lunch with our friends, the Collins. We have a tradition of going to Tijuana Flats after worship gathering with them. Later that day we got to go swimming with friends from Memphis. They were in town and fresh off the boat from their Disney cruise.

Monday we hung out with them at Magic Kingdom. As much fun as we had, that ended up being a LOOOONG day. Very fun, but I tried to wimp out a few times and go back to the condo but Trevor talked me into staying each time. I lasted 12 hours which I think isn't bad for 6 months pregnant in the Florida heat. We went to Epcot and had dinner at Germany with them which was a blast.

off the Norway ride in epcot, this picture cracks me up


On the Monorail: 4 girls, the pickle doesn't have a chance.....

Tuesday was Trevor's birthday so we hung out with his sister and her family who were also in Orlando last week. We let the kids swim and hang out all day and it was so relaxing and fun. That evening we met friends at O'Hana for Trevor's birthday. This is the restaurant he works at in the Disney Polynesian Resort. This might have been the highlight of our trip. Trevor made me promise in the parking lot that I wouldn't tell anyone it was his birthday. He doesn't like a fuss being made over him, and he knew they would make a big deal over it since he works there. I promised, but I didn't like it. The good news is when we checked in, his manager was standing there and said "Hey, its your birthday, isn't it?" AWESOME. That was all that needed to be said. He sat us at the best table and in our favorite server's section. This server LOVES to pick on Trevor so his birthday did not go unnoticed. They sang to him, brought cupcakes, picked him and our friend Jamie to be the limbo pole holders...the whole works. It was a big deal and it was great to see them make sure Trevor was good and embarrassed :) When we got back to the room that night, Trevor went to a late movie with his friend Jim which was a great way for him to end his day. They love catching movies when we're in town.

happy birthday, Trevor!!!!

The Limbo pole holders

Wednesday we drove to Cocoa beach and had a family day. This was so much fun because we haven't been to the beach since we lived in FL. Avery loved it but did not want sand on her legs. One of the pictures I snapped shows how pleased she was when we first got there. We then drove by the Kennedy Space center to show Avery the rockets, space shuttle, etc. We want to go there, but will wait until she is old enough to understand it.

the princess is not happy...

so glad we had the umbrella!!!

digging a pool

Thursday Trevor met his sister at Magic Kingdom and they let the kids hang out and ride rides for most of the day. It was fun for them and I got to wimp out and stay at the condo. I took a two hour nap and sat by the pool. Everyone wins!! That night our friends the Collins had a cookout for us with our church family. It was such a wonderful night and we so appreciate them having the cookout. There was plenty of food but the fellowship was our favorite part. We miss everyone so much and this allowed us to catch up with everyone all in one visit!! Thanks again, Jim and Beth. We love you guys!!!

Friday we continued our fun with the Collins and their two little ones. They came to our condo Friday morning and we let the kids play and swim until lunch. They went back to their house for nap time and came back for dinner. We went swimming again, had dinner together and watched the fireworks from our balcony. It was the perfect way to end our vacation. We did not want it to end, this was such a great week. We loved the time off and just getting to spend it with friends from Tennessee, Florida and Trevor's sister and family. A great combination of friends making for a very fun week!!!

our last night: the girls giggled on the balcony well after the fireworks were over...

Not ready to be back from vacation...but it had to end sometime :) So, that is where we've been for over a week. Avery was upset the whole drive home because she wants to live in Florida. "Because Florida has rides and the beach". Not sure she understands that live is the same wherever you live....but it makes our visits there that much more special!!

I hope you enjoy the pictures from our trip. Have a wonderful week!!!!!!!

spring things

The Lunch Crew

Since "Grandma & Grandpa Poland" didn't get to see graduation or our celebratory tea party afterwards, this post is for them :) Our little group of friends who got together every Friday for lunch decided we would have a little graduation party for the girls. One friend and her mommy couldn't make it but the rest were here at our house. I had left over tea party supplies from a party that didn't happen last year. So, we decided to let the girls be princesses for the day and celebrate their graduation. They had so much fun and managed to turn our house into a war zone in about an hour flat. As the moms hung out and talked they apologized for trashing my house. I told them "I would rather have a trashed house that is full of friends than a clean house that is empty". I love it when friends come over. We had so much fun. The girls all went upstairs in the play room and the mommies hung out and talked. We had a great lunch and even better fellowship. Even though we won't see each other this summer for school, we have made a pact that we will try to get together at the very least, every other week. So, tomorrow we're all headed for the sprinkler playground for playing and a picnic. We can't wait! Hopefully, the rain will hold off....

the lunch crew momma's & their girls

the girls w/Ms. Shey & Ms. Samantha

Avery waving to us from the stage :)

The Tea Party--Avery had enough princess dresses for everyone. Thank goodness for Trevor's disney discount :)

The Tea table

Princess cupcakes by Tara

Ready for our decaf sweet tea!!

On a side note, does anyone watch Jon & Kate plus 8? I have watched this show for awhile. A lot of it is because the sextuplets are Avery's age and it was fun to watch others her age in a much larger setting. But, also it was interesting to see an average family survive the day to day madness with so many kids. The show has changed over the past year as we've seen the gifts get larger and larger. The whole family taking luxury trips, free concerts, a tummy tuck for mommy (you know, because we all just get that done when we desire..) hair plugs for Daddy, etc. It got kind of silly. However, with the latest scandel that they're both having affairs, I find myself almost obsessed with reading the updates on them. I am shocked that they're in this situation. It is such a great example of how money is the root of all evil. They have become famous, have a lot of money, now live in a million dollar house...but they're miserable. Supposedly they aren't living under the same roof and on the show last night they hardly even spoke. There are many issues that surround that family, but what was so sad with me was that Jon & Kate, while interviewing separately, both stated that they're in it for the kids. Everything they do is for the kids. As Jon stated "They're happy, they're fed, they have a roof over their heads and they are loved. That is all they need". No, Jon, that is not all they need. They need for you and Kate to put your marriage first. They need for you to quit the show and work on keeping your family together. They need to know that there is no price for your parents staying together. They need to know that you love them and each other and God enough to put your marriage first. It was so disappointing because they have always talked openly about their faith. Even though they have many, many fights...they always talked about their faith and the importance of family. Satan has opened up his bag and used many tools to get in the middle of this family and it is so sad to watch it fall apart on TV. Such a classic example of greed. I am sure it was great to have free clothes, furniture, etc. but at what price? Anyway, just wondering what everyone else's thoughts were about this. Just makes me sad because they seemed to be throwing in the towel. I know there is a lot we don't know...but with God nothing is impossible and I really wish they would quit the show and put Him first along with their marriage.

Ok, done with my venting :) Have a great week!!!!!!!!!